organisation.

organisation is the key to a healthy life.
then why have i, in my last term of secondary education, only just began to get organised?

organ donation is a different thing altogether.

my willy hurts.

to begin with, the day boded ill. but i guess things have picked up considerably. at least i am not suffering from toenail pain any longer.
i just watched Quasimodo, gets me every time :')

Sundays are dull, but i don't mind, gives me time to do pointless things..
like write a blog.

i got around three hours of broken sleep last night. damn toe.

but today i revised my chemistry, and i feel i am kind of prepared for an exam for the first time in my life. PRAISE THE LORD FOR THE POWER HE DUST BESTOW.

no, PRAISE THE BEANS WITH LITTLE SAUSAGES IN.

no...... PRAISE YOUR MUM.

i got a self graded A which i am proud of cause i didn't cheat ;D

much.
but i feel if i don't get a B in this exam, i may cry.


maybe jack will get out of bed soon.. what a knob head.

TOODLE PIP.

in a philosophical mood.

i don't like it when i am in this mood. it gets me thinking about what is the point in it all. humans survive, but when it boils down to a reason for anything being here, the answer is always chance.
we as a race try to create reason, we made jobs, schools, medicine, goals, complicated relationships, affairs, choice, shops, travel, everything.
all of it is there for us to give ourselves meaning, but the the irony is that none of it HAS meaning. to survive, we don't need it.
but then, i suppose there is a vast difference between SURVIVING and actually LIVING.
surviving is sustaining, the ability to breathe, move, recreate.. and we have created this materialistic monster called 'living.' i am part of it, but i can't help thinking i wish i wasn't.
when i put everything into perspective, i wish to leave society and live on an island.. not alone but alone enough. some desolate place where money, judgement, bitching, materialism, illness and all of human's complications just DON'T EXIST. i wouldn't miss it, because i wouldn't know it. i'd live. sustain myself. see the true beauty of everything that is supposed to be admired. not buildings, t.v. screens, movies. nature.

i'm not suicidal, i'm happy, i love my life, it has complications, but who's doesn't? i am just as bad as everyone else.. i just guess everyone wants to escape sometimes.

i just wish WE hadn't made everything so complicated for ourselves.
it can't be undone.

NEW POST.

here i am.

and there you go.

need to do something.
need to relax brain.

NEED TO REVISE FENCH{VBINB;KZDCXN]FXLB X;NM\SZ]NX


this is difficult.