there just isn't time in the day..

Wow, I am surprised at myself at how well I have done with revision and stuff.
I never thought I would be able to pull myself together this well, and actually become a real geek :)
I'm genuinely happy though, 'cause it means that I know that I can work when I really need to.
people can say what they want about me, I just really don' give a shit.
I like to think I'm quite an honest person about myself, I tell people I don't know so well about things that people wouldn't normally divulge. I like being like this, it makes me embarrassed, kind of, but in a good way. For example...

Whenever I think in my head for a moment 'this is so embarrassing' I just think 'WHO SAYS IT IS?' and carry on. Who on this earth has the right to determine whether something is 'embarrassing' or 'awkward', I'm too philosophical when it comes to these things. I just think, is being embarrassed really a thing, or is it just something that we as a race have created for ourselves? I don't know, but I'm not going to delve too deep into that.

The other day, I was infuriated. Fucking bitchy people, just do my twat in. They all think they're so good, but you know what? You all look like fucking low bastards. Being a bitch isn't a trait that anyone likes to see. I might be being a bitch myself right now, but it's not personally to anyone, I'm just venting my anger out. They look down on you, on everyone, like they own the place. When really, they're at the bottom of the heap, because they feel like they have to degrade other people, BEHIND THEIR BACKS in order to make themselves feel better about themselves. Just gets on my tits.

For some reason which cannot determine, I find myself buzzing my twat off for going to college. A new start is what I need, I just feel like everything is going to change, but in a good way.
I'm going to miss people though. There just isn't time in the day to say everything that I'm feeling about school at the moment, I'm so worried, this milestone is making me feel like my life is slipping away. I'm probably a bit too young to be thinking like this, but it's still a concern, and you know, when there's a concern, I will be concerned... Did that make sense?

Going now, bye.